I'm here if you need me

What do I do?  How can I get through to you?  You've closed yourself off - I understand that you are trying to figure yourself out - but I want you to know that I am here - and I can listen if required - it seems as though the more I try, the more you move away - and the more closed you are.  So I step back. And watch - and ache and desperately try to gain some insight into what you are thinking - by various means that go nowhere.

Life seems to move forward day by day - and yet, I don't actually seem to move forward - all the same - but I 'm just older - but certainly no wiser.
Spinning in circles,
days merging into the next
wanting something
anything to energize me
the futility of living
it's getting me down
more and more
all the same
where is it leading
or am I just spinning

Like Anyone Will Read This

Ok, so I have been fanatising of writing a blog - but, let's face facts - who would read it?  I've just spent approx. 40 minutes looking up people from my past on facebook.  Damned depressing really - they all seem so successful - phds, published, blah, blah, blah. Me - I'm a teacher in a Montessori school in Perth Australia - albeit PARADISE - but definitely NOT glamourous.  I am a mother - of two gorgeous girls who - well, let's just say I adore being their mum - they bring me great joy, grief at times, heaps of stress as teenage- hood looms ever closer - all I can say is based on an Ani DiFranco line - I can make breath - well, I've made breath - twice - and when you come down to it - they beat a phd anytime. : )