I'm here if you need me

What do I do?  How can I get through to you?  You've closed yourself off - I understand that you are trying to figure yourself out - but I want you to know that I am here - and I can listen if required - it seems as though the more I try, the more you move away - and the more closed you are.  So I step back. And watch - and ache and desperately try to gain some insight into what you are thinking - by various means that go nowhere.

Life seems to move forward day by day - and yet, I don't actually seem to move forward - all the same - but I 'm just older - but certainly no wiser.
Spinning in circles,
days merging into the next
wanting something
anything to energize me
the futility of living
it's getting me down
more and more
all the same
where is it leading
or am I just spinning